6 Years Of 5SOS

It's 3rd December.

Hey, today is 5 Seconds Of Summer's 6th anniversary!

And I have a lot of nice things I want to say about them...

Recently, they save my life again...and again. And I believe, they'll continue to save me from time to time.

So yeah, my previous entry, as you can tell, I wanted to reach out. But then again, you see, no one wanted to lend their hands...guess what I feel ? Nahh, I'm not sad...

I just feel almost nothing.

So yeah...I've decided that, I want to settle down by myself...live alone and die alone.

I want to be reborn.

To be reborn, I have to die first...

After listening to 5SOS's second album, listen to all the songs one by one with hope to help me feel again...

That moment, I started to feel something again...

The songs...especially Carry On/Outer Space and Invisible and Fly Away...

Those songs made me think that, instead of killing myself and die and then go to hell...

I can be reborn, in certain ways...

Here, I would like to give all the credits to a band from Australia called 5 Seconds Of Summer for giving me such a hope that I thought I no longer have...

The hope of to keep living in this cruel world...

To stay alive even when it all go to shit...

Thanks Luke Hemmings,

Thanks Calum Hood,

Thanks Michael Clifford,

Thanks Ashton Irwin.

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

Thanks for being alive in the same era as I do, thanks for creating songs that can save my life...

Thank you for everything.

I know, I'm late to be their fan, I started to focus and take them seriously just few months ago...but I never felt this way before...

The hope a band can give to save my life...

The hope that no one else want to share with me...

I love you guys, I love you guys so so much....

For I already lost my purpose in living, and when it's all about to end...I realize that I still have to meet you guys...so yeah, I'll make sure one day, I'll meet you guys...

That sums it up now...

Yeah, now I have new dream...why I have to complete my study and stay on track again...I know now...I found back the reasons why I started, and not just that, now, I have new reason to shine brighter...

To not give up again, to wake up and try again when I fall hard...

Thank you.

:-)

p/s : I celebrated today by eating cake and Domino's pizza by myself. I'm gonna listen to their songs again and again nonstop for today.

I really hope they will drop their third album soon.

Really can't wait for that...to listen to my new favorite songs :-)

CALM

Hello Internet.

I'll be going back to UTM tomorrow to start my third semester. Wish me my best guys!
I'm totally ready to start new semester. However, there's something that keeps bothering me...

Yeah, I'm still afraid whether or not I can improve my grades, improve myself and everything that I've been telling myself day by day for the past few months during my semester break.

Now, it's for the real thing to happen. I've been practicing a lot. How should I talk, how should I improve...and how can I be more productive...but yeah, you know right, to master something, practicing is never enough. I have to face it for real and walk my talks.

Anyway...I'm here to talk about CALM. Hehe...what's that ?
It stands for :
Calum
Ashton
Luke
Michael

Heheh. 5SOS's members of course!

Well, well, well...if I put the obvious title like 5SOS, I know Ajue won't read this...haha. Nahh...

I've tried my best to make my siblings like 5SOS too, but they won't = ="
I don't know what else should I do to convince them and make them like 5SOS as much as I do right now.
It's pretty weird because back then, few years ago, I managed to convince them to become a Directioner and like One Direction...and they actually did like One Direction even though not as much as I do.

But, what's happening now ? They won't even want to try to listen to 5SOS's songs ? = ="

Oh yeah, now, I would like to try to convince you to like them...so guys, please...
hehehe.

I won't deny it now how much they had influenced me...and some people actually said it to me that, "no...no...nahh, not good"
= ="

Whatever guys.
Knowing them, liking them, loving them...I feel more myself. And someone that I lost along the journey of growing up, I found her back.

You guys know that One Direction in on hiatus, and that's tough for me...but hey, 5SOS is there to save my days...

and I like that.

After knowing them, it's kinda like a turning point for me...and it comes to the point where I started to care about my appearance and how I want people to see me.

Now, I'm good. I bought a lot of new clothes, and yeah, you'll be able to see my new style next semester.
And I'll be wearing that punk's bracelets that I just bought...
Hahaha...I really like all those bracelets.

And yeah, I'm that girl...I'm not a fan of gold accessories. And I never want to wear all those gold necklaces and bracelets that my parents bought for me when I was young.
I know they're expensive and I can sell them if I want money...but nahh,
hehe.

I'm okay with wearing that weird kinda ring...that skull ring.

Yeah, and I learn from 5SOS. Look at them. They aren't like any other guys....they look comfortable with their styles and appearances...
I want to be that way too...

I don't want to be trapped in a situation where society makes me dress the way I never want to...
= ="
No...

I know a girl like me, wearing all those punk's stuffs will bring a lot of judgement later on...but, hey, should I care ?
As long as it's not haraam in my religion, I don't see any reasons to not wear what I wanna wear.

Now, their musics...
I guess if you listen to their musics since their first EP, 'Unplugged' until their latest album, 'Sounds Good Feels Good', you really can see how they can maintain their genre and style and yeah, keep making great great songs...of course, you can see also how much they improve themselves in their musics...
And you know what, they will drop their third album anytime soon.
I really wish they will drop it quickly, I'm tired of waiting and I really can't wait to enjoy their new musics and songs, which...I know, will be my favorite as soon as I listen to them...

Nahh...call me a crazy fan, but I bet you'll have the same opinion as me as well.

And it's pretty good that I can't even pick my most favorite song from them, cause you know what, I like them all ! I like them all !

If you want to start listening to them, I mean like a quick one - to judge or what...
I would like to suggest you to listen to their EP, 'Somewhere New'
Because that's the old one...when all of the members were under 20-year-old but it's a really really great EP... (Luke and Calum were 16, Michael was 17, Ashton was 18)
Look, I mean...all those young men...making that damn great musics, I'm amazed...and wow, still...you should try to listen to it...
and yeah, please consider the factor that, that's the music from young people...

Hahaha...alright, let's move to my most favorite band member...

Actually, I keep changing it, it starts from Ashton, then Calum, then Luke and lastly, Michael...
Nahh...I really can't choose and I don't think I should choose any of them, because hey, I like 5SOS and 5SOS consists of four of them together in a band...
Hehehe...

btw, it's too bad that my siblings don't think they're attractive as much as I think...hmm,

If they aren't handsome, then, what's the meaning of handsome actually ?
No jokes, I'm confused...

I mean, look at them...don't lie, be honest.
Guys! Be honest...

I know that beauty is in the eye of the beholder....but hey, are your eyes okay ?

Hehehe...

One more important thing, please don't you ever try to compare them with One Direction...
and hey, let me make it clear...

Their genres are different.
One Direction is a boyband.
5SOS is a band.
One Direction, all five of them, sing together (I still want to count Zayn as 1D, whatever...)
5SOS plays instruments while singing...you know,a band (Luke - Guitar, Calum - Bass Guitar, Michael - Guitar, Ashton - Drums)

so yeah, how can you compare them...and pick which one is better...

and...it's true that One Direction members helped making 5SOS popular...
And you can see it all over the internet that Niall Horan is a big 5SOS's fan.

So please, don't you dare try to compare them...
Let's just like them both, simultaneously.
Peace, no wars!

It's really really okay to be both 5SOSFAM and Directioner at the same time...hehe, like me...
lol.

Btw, I know I'm old enough and not that matured, but then...the thing is, I can't stop liking them...
They save me, they save my life...they inspire me...make me want to live...
I won't be where I am today if it's not because of them...
I know that sounds cliche...but that's the truth.
So tell me why I shouldn't like them ?

Alright guys, I need to pack few more stuffs for my next semester.
Bye! Take care!

Clandestine Liaison

Hey. Long time no updates...and yeah, I'm not busy at all actually.
It's just I don't know what should I write anymore...

My semester break is not more than what you can call 'unproductive'
Basically, I just make small improvement...really really really small in living my life.
'Unproductive', because I guess nobody notices it except me...and sometimes, I don't notice it too...did I really make any improvements ?

Hmm, let's see...
I wake up...eat...pick my sister at school...internet...sleep...the end.

See ?

Anyway, I still would like to update on what's going on with my life lately...
So, as I already told you, I stopped being One Direction fan for a while.
By that, I mean, I don't Google their name every single day anymore...or wake up and keep looking for new pictures, new updates...nahh...no. I stop doing that.
But then, I still listen to their songs but not that much anymore...not everyday.
I'm not gonna say I'm glad doing that or what...but, that's the best for now I think. I'm really shocked with the amount of time I have...
which also means...I realize that I have a lot of free time and yeah, I don't really know what to do with that time...

A lot of times, I just lie down on my bed...and...
Quora.
Ha, as I don't have Twitter, Facebook or Instagram...Quora is my thing.
I'm pretty addictive with it.
I love reading all the answers...and when my favorite Quorans answer something, it's like my daily vitamins...
That keep me going...motivate me...
and well, I really can't wait to start my next semester.
I don't want all the motivations to fade away, if I can motivate myself almost every single day, that's good.
For my future...
and it will be better if I can take small actions every day.

Hmm...

Besides, I'm relearning English.

I'm pretty bad in English as it's not my first language...but I really really love it and want it to be my daily language...

Also, my Tagalog. I still learn that language too...and it's been like 7 months now...
Can you believe that ?
Hmm, you can speak Tagalog with me, I understand them pretty well...but I don't really have the chance to use it as I don't know anyone who can speak that language with me...
But that's alright...I speak to myself...I know it sounds crazy...but yeah, that's my next update :

I speak to myself.
Everyday.
I just realized that people don't care about you.
As much as you thought.
So, I've decided not to give a damn about it and just go on with my life.

I stop keep updating myself with what other people are doing...like my schoolmates (both secondary and primary schools)
I left the Whatsapps' groups...

And I really see it clearly how much people don't care...

So, that's it. If they don't really care about my present, why should I care about them ? Am I right ? Or am I wrong ?
I don't know...

What I know is something in me that says, "I want to start a new life, new goals..."

And one more thing, I've decided not to keep in touch with people that once mean something to me.
I don't specifically say that this is about my ex...no...
I mean, my old friends...my current 'friends'
Ha...

I was really upset at the fact that I was the one who have to start every conversation with them...
I don't want to be that kinda person anymore...

I know that there's nothing wrong with it...
I mean, what's wrong with starting the conversations with people that you care ?

But it hurts when you want to talk with someone but the conversations that you both are having...mostly, are about you interviewing them...asking them about what's going on...
They just...hmm,
I mean, it's true that you can feel it when people don't really want to talk to you...

So, yeah...

I'm almost fully accepting the fact that, I have to live alone...on my own...

Hmm, about my ex...we still keep in touch. Because I care about him, and he cares about me too. I love talking to him once in a while because, he never makes me feel like I'm interviewing him...
Ahh...you know what I mean...
and I don't see any problems of being friends with him if he's like that. I mean, what's more that I want in a friendship ?

Ha, enough talking about that...
After turning off notifications from YouTube (I only turn on notifications from Luke Korns), I can see how much I don't use YouTube as much as before now...
I mean, I used to be so addictive, so this is really a better improvement...because Luke rarely uploads videos...come on, Luke...

Btw, I still watch YouTube every day, it's just I limit myself...
The only reason I watch YouTube every day is because PewDiePie uploads videos every single day!
And he always does live streaming too...

Don't know why, but lately, I love his videos more than I'm supposed too...well, his videos have that power to make me feel better.

Hmm, one more thing...
I've been drawing a lot too...I even keep my own art journals...
I'll show it to you, one day. I hope, you'll like it.
Hahaha...jkjk
It's okay if you hate my drawings, buddy.

Oh, I already wrote a lot...still, the title doesn't seem to fit.
The thing is...I put that title because I want to talk about this one thing.
Hahaha...
Sorry for calling it, my "Clandestine Liaison"
It's a bit too much for calling it...that way.
Whatever.

Hahaha...

Actually, it's been like 2 months or more...
I've been crazy about 5 Seconds Of Summer!
Yeah, it's true...I can't stop myself from listening to their albums every single day. Yes. Every. Single. Day.
And yes, I already memorized most of their songs, not just from their first album, but first EP!
Crazy, right...
But I really really like them...and I regret it so so much that I wasn't paying attention to them before...I mean, back then, I only know their famous hits like, 'She Looks So Perfect', 'Amnesia', 'She Kinda Hot' etc...and well, I focused more on One Direction...
Hmm...
But who cares about the past...now, it's me and 5SOS...

Oh yeah, I can't wait to read their books too...already order them so yeah....they're on their way!

Alright, I think there's nothing more can I say about my life...

I really wish time, will tick away, faster from now...
Because I want to go back to Uni now...
I really really can't wait to start my new semester...
So that, I can learn things and mend my mistakes!

Ha, alright...so what about you ? What are you doing lately ?

Bye!

H U M A N I T Y

Hey guys, I'm here to write something about Descendants Of The Sun...haha...I know I'm one year late...
but then remember what I said last year in THIS entry, haha...I did say, I couldn't finish to watch DOTS...yeah, last year, that's the truth.

That time, I couldn't finish this drama (just managed to watch until ep 2 or 3) because it was too OVERRATED + the main characters fell in love too fast, which lead me to think that that drama would be all about romance + cheesy etc.

So, I stopped watching it.

However, yesterday, after about 3 days, I managed to watch all of the episodes of DOTS... why am I watching DOTS after a year ? hahah...of course, all of you already know about SONGSONG COUPLE IS GETTING MARRIED IN OCTOBER.
(You can say that I watch this to ship this couple, hhaha)

and I would like to say this, this time...

All my thoughts in the past were completely wrong...this drama isn't the type of drama that is so predictable and full of romance...no, not at all...
and you know what, I can't even ship the couple after watching this even when they really really look good together....

Because I started to think about the bigger issues that happen all around the globe.
(This means, I still want to ship the couple...lol)

See... ? Now, I understand why this drama was insanely popular and gained a lot of awards...

Okay, hehe...instead of saying this, let me make it clear why I think this drama is great!

This drama is about the soldier, Captain Yoo Si Jin and the doctor, Dr Kang Mo Yeon who met unexpectedly and fell for each other instantly. However, due to their occupations, they had to end up their relationship, but then, after eight months they met again, in unexpected situation, unexpected place...
Their relationship was full with the ups and downs...mostly, because of their occupations.

heee...
I write the synopsis that way, because I want to highlight how the drama focused on the occupations but not love story (in case you also misunderstood the drama like my old self...lol)

If you're looking for a romantic comedy drama, this ain't the perfect one.
But, if you're looking for something realistic and full of life...yeah, of course, still include that romantic and comedy but in a good way, definitely, this is the perfect one!

I once hated the idea of how Si Jin instantly, fell in love with Mo Yeon, but as I watched this drama, I couldn't believe that I hated it when Si Jin had to go somewhere when he's on dates with Mo Yeon.
They both were busy with their works, and it's so hard for them to find time to go on date...but when they're on dates, still...they couldn't date...ahh...too bad.

When they met again in Urk...even when the timing seemed not perfect, but it was perfect for them to always met up (not dating). At least, they had time to stay close to each other. And that's enough...

I think Captain Yoo Si Jin is the perfect realistic male character...it's hard for me to like any of main characters before (except Do Min Joon, an alien from My Love From The Star)...hahah...
But for Si Jin, I think, he's a really really cool and calm guy, who acknowledged his responsibility and duty. His responsibilities were tested a lot...and a lot more when he fell in love with Mo Yeon, but still...as a guy who took his occupation very seriously, Si Jin managed to put aside his feelings even though it's hard for him.

Wow. That seems so so great.

I know, in reality, when people choose their works over families or the people that they love, other people tend to ask,
"So, your work is more important ? So, what am I to you? Go and marry your work then" blablablabla...

But come to think of it, work is the responsibility that involves the world, not just people around us... like Si Jin, he went to wars and fight bad people, if he chose to stay, what would happen ?

Hmm, the thing is, remember not to be so selfish if you want to be with unselfish people.
"Go and marry your work...", what a selfish statement...
= ="

For Mo Yeon, she's the normal woman who faced a lot of problems in her life. It's hard to be in her place too... especially when she had been passed over for professorship in a favor of colleague who had familial connections to the hospital management
So, when she had a chance to be a doctor-who-is-on-tv-not-operation-room, it's easy to understand her feeling as human when she used that opportunity very well.

It's a human thing, to do that when we lost all our hopes...

But then, thankfully, she realized about her responsibilities once again after going on a mission in Urk...

To be a doctor, the responsibilities, the reasons...etc

Enough talking about the main character...

Now, I would like to say this, if I watched this drama when I was 15, I might not end up where I am today (taking an engineering course)
Hahah...just saying, because...one character really caught my eyes, I mean, her occupation.

First Lieutenant, Yoon Myung Ju.

Because at sixteen, I had to choose my path, whether wanted to take technical-science , pure science...etc

Myung Ju, an army doctor.

I really really think that's a cool job and only those who are great enough will be able to do the job perfectly (this means, I ain't great enough... = =")

Hahah...come to think of it, as a doctor, of course you need to be calm when treating the patients but then plus the army, how do you think it will be...the pressure is a lot more because now, you have to be calmer than before...

Imagine treating the patients at the war, at the natural disaster scenes...oh my goodness...

Calm, is such a hard feeling...not all people can stay calm in a serious situation. Bravos to all of the army doctors out there...you're super super great.
I admire you Sir and Madam :-)

In this drama, Myung Ju fell in love with Master Sergeant Seo Dae Young...
Haa...and now, I would like to talk about Seo Dae Young.

Seo Dae Young also is a character that knew his responsibilities very well like Si Jin...the thing is, even when that's the case, Myung Ju's father didn't like him to be with his daughter and used to make commands that would part Dae Young and Myung Ju...

I really hate that Dad character...he misused his power... = ="
Eeee...

Enough talking about the characters...now I would like to talk about the great scenes that definitely will bring tears to your eyes...

First and foremost, of course, when there's an earthquake...

Really, I never even imagined how it's to be in that situation for real...now when I think about it, I know it's hard.
Stay and alive.
Stay and die.
Run and still die.
Run and alive.

There're a lot of probabilities.
Really.

That scene when the medical team went to the place after the earthquake...ahh...

and all the scenes between Doctor Lee Chi Hun and Kang Min Jae...
Oh my...

so so great...brings tears, and at the same time, brings great realization of reality of work life and responsibilities...

hmm, last but not least, the scene when Myung Ju and Mo Yeon still saved the bad guy and turned out he brought contagious disease with him...
that scene is so great and meaningful... hmm, sometimes, the consequences after we carry out our responsibilities successfully aren't always great and sweet...and that's the reality of life...

anyway, I think I write a lot...

but hey, I still don't write about my favorite character...can you guess who ?
Hmm...of course, it's no other than Daniel Spencer, Peacemaker Emergency Doctor Team.

This character is so perfect and it's not that surprise if I like this character more than the great Captain Yoo Si Jin...hehhe...

Daniel Spencer, a doctor...who's from a rich family...he not only good in operation room (repairing people) but he's good in repairing things and machines...
What a dream guy.

I mean, that's perfect for me...to be a doctor, of course, that means, he's smart and read a lot and that's cool...
From a rich family, hmm...that's just a bonus...
But then, to be good in repairing things (cars, machines etc)...wow...so manly, and reliable...
hmm, plus, he's really good-looking.

Heheh...

alright, enough is enough...

I hope you notice the great impacts this drama had brought to my life...
To realize about so many things...hmm, really...
I can't think lightly about the issues like wars + natural disaster + diseases...

It's my faults to think lightly when I thought I couldn't make any change by thinking more on those issues...hmm, everyone can make a change if they want...
You know that too...

If you don't have time to watch this drama yet, I hope you can find some time to do so...  I hope you'll enjoy this drama as much as I do...

For focusing on such great issues, this drama deserves the 10/10 stars...heheh...

Truly, Madly, Deeply

Hi guys, memandangkan essay sebelum ni, dibaca oleh begitu banyak orang, aku dengan berbesar hati meluangkan masa lagi, untuk share satu lagi essay aku time zaman sekolah...
heheh...

Ahh, tapi ingatlah, Essay ni ditulis oleh aku yang berusia 17 tahun, waktu tu lah aku ambil SPM and dapat A+, aku yang sekarang (20 tahun), English nya agak berkarat...hahaha...sebab aku dah kurang membaca...menjadi pemalas setelah tamat sekolah = =", ish...ish...ish...

Kepada yang bakal duduki SPM, all the best! Sila jangan malas setelah tamat sekolah ya, jalan masih panjang.

Oh ya, essay ni merupakan essay titik mula aku minat English, semuanya disebabkan ni adalah essay pertama aku yang mendapat perhatian ramai (sebelum tu, essay aku sendu2 sahaja, tak famous)... Famous nya esei aku yang satu ni dapat dilihat dari sudut...jeng...jeng...
Esei ni masuk majalah sekolah! Nak tak nak, pelajar sekolah aku, dengan kata lain, 'membeli' eseiku ini...(kan majalah sekolah kena bayar, = =") - haha, walaupun begitu, aku tak dapat keuntungan pun dari sudut wang, hanyalah nama aku sedikit menjadi sebutan waktu tu...

Hahah. Merepek betul. Hmm, ni essay yang aku tulis untuk Ujian 1 Form 5 (sekitar March 2014)
dan soalannya berbunyi, tulis cerita yang ending nya bebunyi "We looked at each other and smiled"

...

Since the day I was born, I never thought about this thing seriously. It was not me to draw a longbow about my life, well, when it was the truth, how could I deny ? This thing might have change my everyday life, my attitude and even myself. To call a spade a spade, amazingly, the more I thought about it, the more I realized the changes it had brought in my life. Love.

...as the saying goes, "it's love that makes world go around", I totally agreed with this.

My final examination was around the corner. To avoid studying at the eleventh hours and a little-known fact about me : I hate to burn the midnight oil. I used to do the revision almost every hour. When I study, I glued myself. No one could change the way I did it. However, there was a time when the thing did not work like how it supposed to.

On that day, which wouldn't be just like every other day, I started my day as usual but finally my mother could change it in a blink of an eye. She asked me to help her to buy an ice-cream  for her when I was studying in my bedroom. At first, I said I could not understand the way she thought about this. For an ice-cream, I must left my study, my mother really thought that way ? When I told her, she said, "Time will tell, you'll thank me for this. Anyway, I'll treat you an ice-cream."

I was in low spirit, cycling my bike to the nearby shop. I didn't know why I help her as every time she asked me, I refused to help her and it worked. She would easily ask my brother to help her. When I reached the shop, I felt my heartbeat, beat faster than usual. I saw a boy. It was him. The person I love the most in my world.

His hair was neat and looked as if it was woven from the hues of midnight sky. His face, made me bear in my mind the face of my favorite actor, Lee Min Ho. Just like I was dreaming, all I could see was a handsome boy in a sapphire blue shirt under a white track jacket. I couldn't take my eyes off him. He was so perfect, at least his appearance told me that and made me think that way.

He was choosing a book to be bought. Only a book. Like I was all into him, I knew that at that time I just thought, a guy with book seemed so cool! How I wish I know him! In a perfect way, mostly the way he did at all time in that shop, he paid for the book to the cashier. He stepped out from the shop elegantly and quickly rode his motorcycle to the place I might know.

After he went out from the shop, I made my way to home. I did not realize that I had forgot what my mother asked me to but at the shop. With spring in my steps, and the full of thought about him in my brain, I sang a beautiful love song and rode my bike to home. I believed that I smile from ear to ear along my way to home.

When I reached home, my mother might have realize that I wore a sweet smile on my face when she asked me about my feeling. Foolishly, I said I was extremely happy that I thought I had falling in love! My mother burst out laughing and said she would not take it seriously. My face turned red.

I went to my bedroom to continue with my revision. In my bedroom, out of sudden, I remembered that my mother did not ask me anything about the ice-cream. I couldn't barely stomach any idea about this. I went to ask her but she said, "I believe you have your own reason about this thing. Finally, the smile in your face had returned."

When I heard that from her mouth, tears began to fall from my eyes. I locked myself in my room. This time, I had learned something about myself. I felt my mother's love towards me and I thought about my attitude all this time. I realized that I was wrong about the way I used to live my life and how I refused to help my mother when she asked me. I thought about what kind of face I had showed each time I refused to help her.

"It is me who never smile ? Am I ?" Seriously, deeply I thought about it and after a while I decided to ask for an apology from my mother.

"Change your way, everyone deserves to have a second chance, turn over a new leaf, and Bob's your uncle", my mother said those words to me. In that second, the pieces of my life that had been falling apart fell back in place. Everything that was wrong just righted itself.

By the next day, once again, my other asked me to buy her an ice-cream. This time, I was willing to help her! We had a little conversation for a while and this gave my mother a chance to beat around the bush about my feeling yesterday which I foolishly told her - about I was falling in love with an unknown guy. That mysterious guy. This lead me remembering about that guy. I was thinking of him again.

By the time I reached the shop, I felt nervous. He might be there again in that shop, but, who wanted to buy a book everyday ? With hope he would be there, slowly I entered the shop and...there he was!

This moment, I saw him looking for an ice-cream. It was fated, I was going to buy an ice-cream too. "This is the best day in my life, I decided to help my mother, and God sent me this guy. God gives me the chance to butter both sides of my bread!", I thought in my heart. I went to the place where that boy was busying to pick an ice-cream. I could feel my heart raced while I was watching him.

He looked around and caught me watching him. I looked away, but it was too late. I tried not to smile, but I was embarrassed and that only made me smile more. He didn't seem to notice. Quickly, I picked an ice-cream for my mother and at the same time he picked the same ice-cream too! I nearly burst out laughing but I just smiled meaningfully. We looked at each other and smiled.

....

Hahaha...aku rasa aku zaman dulu aku memang suka berdrama...apa ni...cerita sal beli2 ice-cream... agaknya aku tengah mengidam nak makan ice-cream kot time jawab ujian ni dulu = ="

Ha, aku letak tajuk ni "Truly, Madly, Deeply" sebab  cikgu bi aku suruh aku letak tajuk esei ni kalau nak masukkan dalam majalah sekolah...waktu tu, "Truly, Madly, Deeply" merupakan lagu favorite aku...hahhaa...so, aku letak je lah.
Dan, untuk versi majalah je, aku letak nama Lee Min Ho tu, versi asal yang aku karang, takda la nama Min ho...aku buat begitu sebab zaman dulu, aku peminat fanatik Min Ho, jadi, waktu tu, aku nampak peluang nak promote nama dia dekat majalah sekolah, so, aku manfaatkanlaa...

Hahahahah.

...

Aku nak bagi quick tips kalau nak tulis essay dengan baik.
First sekali, nyawakan cerita anda. Cewwah....nyawakan tu...perghh... = ="
Hmm, maksud aku, describe la sikit. Elaborate. Jangan bagi essay tu tak ada jiwa. Tambah2 kalau tulis cerita. Contohnya, macam ni :

Adik duduk di atas kerusi sambil makan ais-krim.

Hmm, nampak ber 'nyawa' tak ? Takkan. Describe la sikit.

Adik, kanak-kanak girang yang tak mampu senyap asyik menggila, akhirnya mampu duduk senyap di atas kerusi antik berwarna coklat setelah diberi ais-krim vanila, perisa kegemarannya untuk di makan.

Hahaha...ada 'nyawa' kan ? Watak adik tu, bila describe dia girang blablabla, nampak la dia bukan watak dongeng, kerusi tu pun...setelah cakap antik blabla, nampak la, realiti kerusi tu camna... dan ais-krim tu pun...dapat bayang la, warna putih sebab perisa vanila.

Hee...tapi, please la...tu contoh sahaja. Jangan pulak terlalu over nyawakan cerita anda.

Tips kedua, hafal idioms.
Yeah, idioms buat cerita anda lebih menarik...kalau aku dulu, aku fikir idioms apa yang aku ingat, baru aku karang cerita...dengan kata lain, aku akan pusing2 jugak cerita aku tu, sampai aku boleh guna juga idioms yang aku hafal tu...
Hahaha...

Contoh, macam dalam esei di atas, aku ada guna, "Bob's your uncle" kan ? ha, aku belajar idiom tu time tengok interview One Direction (sebab aku minat gila kat 1D) so, aku try2 gak nak guna...hahaha...

K, bye!

Thanks for reading this. Moga bermanfaat.

Untitled Essay : From 2014 Me

Hey guys, long time no update...but yeah, I'm here today.
Jadi beberapa hari lalu, aku terjumpa essay yang aku tulis waktu exam bi time aku form 5. Yeah, the truth is, aku jumpa kertas exam lama aku. Heheh.

So, essay tu, aku dapat markah yang agak tinggi dan aku rasa, I need to share it. Sebab ada banyak yang cari contoh esei bi SPM, kan...kan...

Hmm...dan soalan esei tu, bunyinya begini, "tulis cerita yang bermula dengan ayat 'It was a warm night and..."

It was a warm night and I was sitting outside of my house, watching the pitch-black sky, searching for the stars. However, it was tough as this night seemed to be starless. I could not hit the sack early like I used to, I also could not even dream how my day would turn out to be tomorrow. And all this because...

It was almost noon by the time I started a long walk home. The heat was stifling. Gradually, the grotesque shapes of the dark clouds gathered in the blue-grey sky. From that, I knew, it was going to rain!

In a twinkling of an eye, the drizzling rain beads started to fall. Quickly, I made my steps to the nearest bus stand. I did not realize, the steps that I took would lead me to a start of something new in my life. Something new ? I hoped I had more clear ideas on that! I saw one man. He looked tall with muscular body, black hair swept back from his forehead, and charming face with high cheekbones.

As I walked there, out of thin air, that man broke the silent, he asked, "Do you like rain?", I replied, "a...a...yes, sure", "why?", without wasting a second, he asked again. Hmm...at that juncture, I was thinking that he was asking me about Rain, a celebrated singer from South Korea. My brain might tend to think that way because I really like Rain. I took  breath and gathered all my thoughts, saying, "He is handsome, talented, with cute dimple, a...and his voice...ah...I melt every time I...", while talking, I noticed that on his face mapped out every smile and grimace. Then, he burst out laughing. I was jarred. His laugh stopped me like a slap on the face. I was speechless. Then, he said, "a...haha...I'm sorry that I laugh so hard, you're so...funny! I didn't ask you about that Rain, yeah it's raining now, do you like it ?"

Hearing those words coming out one by one from his mouth, my face turned red, as red as beet root. I whipped around to avoid looking at him, and only silent remained for my answer of his question.

Out of the blue, he asked again, "So, you're going to that school tomorrow ?", he pointed the school near the bus stand with his index finger and then continued, "I have to tell you this, it's better if you don't go to that school. Frankly, my heart bleed for you, something bad surely will happen if,, if you study there, but your parents left you with no choice, right ?", slowly those words coming out from his mouth. I was burning with curiosity of why he said something like that. Therefore, I asked, "Why did you say that? Do I know you? Who are you to say that ?", I noticed the crooked smile on his face, he then said, "Guess who am I ? A fortune-teller.", "Wh...what ?", as I said that, the rain finally led up and he left me just like that.

My eyes followed his steps, in front of the mysterious school, he vanished in a blink of an eye. I swore, he really vanished! I started to ponder about his words. Pondering. Thinking. Finally, I decided not to go home, I had to go somewhere else.

"I'm not going to school!!", I shouted quite loud, fortunately there was no one there. I had a hunch that what the fortune-teller said was true. Hmm, but I did not know where must I went to.

Out of sudden, a silver car appeared in my line of sight. Oh no! It was my father!

I thought, my day could not be any worse than this day. Father brought Seth with him too. Seth, my off-again, on-again boyfriend. Right now, we were off. To face him after meeting the fortune-teller was not the right timing. My father might had notice that I did not like to be in the same car with Seth as he said 'Sorry!' as I entered his car.

It was only silent in the car, but then Seth tapped me and said, "Look...look, I hate eating chocolates...I...", his voice truly annoyed me, in anger, I shouted, "Don't eat them then!". He was, as he used to be, ignoring my words and said, "I hate how chocolates immediately melt on my fingers. I mean, am I...that hot ?", he sounded really funny, innocently saying that. Oh my God! However, I could not help it and burst out laughing. That moment, I might had forget about the fortune-teller.

I knew, things were not all made of honey. Actually, I still could not forget about that! Even after laughing so hard, it still there stuck on my mind.

At night, I picked a sheet, and vaguely, wrote down about the fortune-teller. Then, I tore it into shreds. It could not be seen by anyone! Once again, I thought deeply about this thing, it was hard for me to sleep amid the anger and confusion. I felt like insomnia. However, "Whatever will happen tomorrow, I'm going to face it!", I monologue those words again and again, until I fell asleep.

"I am ready for tomorrow!".

...

LOL. Tu lah essay yang aku tulis back then when I was form 5. Don't know where I got that idea back then...but anyway, thanks for reading this.

Hope this essay will be beneficial to those who read it.

p/s : Ada lagi esei bi aku yang aku share, and esei tu pun dapat markah tinggi jugak, siap masuk majalah sekolah aku zaman dulu...heheh....apapun, kalau nak baca, click essay
Bye!

Awak, Kita Nak Bina Kapal!

Hai...
aku nak potpetpotpet sikit sal kos yang aku sedang belajar sekarang. Mulanya, aku pernah fikir nak cerita hal ni bila dah tamat belajar, tapi cam lambat lagi la pulak.
Dan ada anon yang bertanya, maka aku rasa takpalah, aku tulis jela...

Jadi, ni cerita aku yang masih mentah,
Waktu aku tulis ni, aku sedang di semester 2 dan berbaki 6 semester lagi untuk tamat belajar (lama lagi kann...) bab tu la aku cakap aku masih mentah.

Aku tulis ni, sebab aku terima dua komen di bawah :

"Hai akak , kalau ada masa story lah pasal course akak, pasal life dekat Uni, cara belajar and etc. Sebab kalau search pengalaman orang dekat google tak jumpa langsung pasal course nih :)"

"Hi..sy dpt tawaran matrik teknikal ni juga utk sesi 17/18 :) sy terasa konfiden nak masuk matrik lepas sy tahu awk dpt naval architecture dekat utm :) sbb sy juga sgt berminat dgn bidang tu :) boleh awk bagi tips mcm mana awak dpt menyambung ke utm?"

Yeahh...so, aku pun dengan penuh relanya, nak membalas komen tu dengan panjang lebarnya...hahah.
Apapun, terima kasih atas masa yang awak2 semua guna untuk baca tulisan aku.
Dan, terima kasih sebab bagi komen, tak la aku rasa cam syok sendiri ja menulis.
Hahaha.

Aku belajar course "Naval Architecture and Offshore Engineering", Faculty of Mechanical Engineering kat UTM Skudai.
Dari awal, aku memang nak masuk UTM sebabnya, Crush aku nak masuk UTM...haha.

Tak...tak, plan aku sejak masih bayi ialah, aku nak menuntut ilmu kat negara orang, tapi apakan daya waktu dah dapat tawaran luar negara, aku terpaksa melupakan hasrat itu kerana wang yang banyak diperlukan...

dan cita2 aku dah mula berubah.

Target aku waktu di matrik dan sebelum matrik ialah nak sambung bidang Architecture.

Aku dapat tawaran overseas semua Architecture, and local pun, aku dapat tawaran temuduga Architecture UTM Skudai jugak, tapi, atas kelalaian aku, aku tak pergi temuduga tu.

oh, jadi sebab tak dapat sambung Architecture ler, kau minta Naval Architecture...kau ingat benda sama kee ? Hhahaha.

Oh tak, aku taulah tak sama...

Erkk...bagi yang tak tau, aku dah tahu lama dah yang Naval Architecture dengan Architecture tu...course yang completely berbezaa.

Tak sama.

Kalau ambil kos aku sekarang, pekerjaan dikemudian hari nanti, walaupun memegang jawatan Naval Architect sekalipun, aku ialah seorang Engineer.

Bukan Arkitek.

Dan Engineer, bukan Arkitek. Skop kerja yang berbeza (boleh google untuk tahu lebih lagi)

Dalam definisi yang aku belajar sem lepas : Naval Architect is a professional Engineer who is responsible for the design, construction and repair of ships, boats, other marine vessels and offshore structures.

See..itulah maksud aku, susah nak explain lebih. Aku yang mentah ni tak tahu banyak hal sangat.

Oh, sebelum aku tersasul dan tak melalut lebih, aku nak jawab dulu soalan : boleh awk bagi tips mcm mana awak dpt menyambung ke utm?

Tips tu, tak ada apa sangat, melainkan aku skor pointer yang boleh tahanlah time matrik.

Nak masuk UTM, orang kata agak susah. Dan diakui, memang semua yang masuk sini, results agak tinggi...

Kalau nak selamat, pastikan pointer matrik 3.5 and above. Inshaallah dah selangkah ke UTM.

Untuk batch aku dan course aku, aku diberitahu, average pointer yang masuk ialah 3.78. Ha, dan aku sebenarnya tergolong bawah average sebab aku masuk dengan pointer lebih kurang tu, tapi rendah sikit...3.7+ something jugak

Tapi2, tu tak beerti apa2.

Acehh...cakap besar yehh...

Hmm, betullah. Sem lepas, tak semua dapat DEKAN, tapi, aku berjaya jugak dapat. Heheh.

Aku dah buktikan la kat situ yang aku boleh jugak survive. Dan jangan risau sangat kalau mula2 masuk tu takut2 ke apa...

***(DEKAN untuk UTM ialah 3.67 and above)

Dan entri ni fokus aku, nak cerita sal kos aku la.

Course aku ni, kalau dalam melayunya, dipanggil "Senibina Kapal dan Kejuruteraan Luar Pantai"

Ha, tengok situ pun dah sebut Kapal kan, jadi course ni berkait agk rapat dengan kapal2...

Kalau kau berminat sal kapal jugak, alangkah indahnya dunia kita, awak dan saya berjodoh...hahah...

Yeah, minat kita sama la awak...

lol.

Ye, kalau kau minat kapal jugak, aku rasa kau boleh ambil course ni, baru la seronok belajar :-)
Ada kawan aku yang masuk course ni sebab main letak je time isi UPU...hmm, aku harap juniors tak buat macam tu.

Sedih waktu dengar...aku ada nangis sikit.

You broke my heart...I love this course and wanna learn about it so so bad and yet you said something like that. Tentula sedih kan.

Oh ya, tentang kapal2 tu...akan mula belajar waktu sem 4. Kiranya, waktu aku tulis ni, aku tak belajar lagi pun sal tu sebab aku baru sem 2.

Tapi, aku memang tak sabar sangat2 nak belajar. Inshaallah, bila dah belajar akan aku story sampai kau pun rimas...heheh.

Aku tengok seniors punya project, bina model kapal2...lukis structures kapal, buat aku punya semangat nak belajar naik sikit. Yes, aku tak sabar sangat2

Fasal course aku ni, apa aku nak tulis sekarang ialah...

masuk degree, ini tentang kau sekarang. Berkait banyak dengan masa depan hidup kau.

Kalau betul kau pilih dan minat, pastikan ada satu hal lagi, iaitu kemampuan.

Aku sebenarnya takut juga nak tulis sal kemampuan ni, sebab kadang aku sendiri pun rasa berat, rasa susah...

Tapi, hmm...aku selalu percaya dan try positif (walaupun banyak masa juga aku asyik negatif), aku tau, apa2 yang berlaku kat kita, takkan lebih dari batas mampu kita.

Maksudnya, aku mampu hidup dalam hidup aku sekarang.

:-)

Sem 1 dan Sem 2, semua pelajar mekanikal, tak kira course apa, belajar benda2 yang sama.

Apa yang aku nak ingatkan...nak masuk bidang mekanikal...adalah amat digalakkan untk kau minat mengira + membaca dan kau minat melakukan kerja menggunakan alat2.

Ya, kemahiran mengira amat perlu, sebabnya kau perlu berdepan banyak subjek yang perlu untuk buat macam2 calculations, ye...sahabat baik kau nanti memang calculator...

Serious...

Jadi, be prepared.

Oh, dan untuk membaca pulak...memang tak banyak subjek yang perlu kau baca...tapi, kalau kau minat membaca, itu bantu kau untuk faham banyak perkara dengan sebetul-betulnya, betul kan ?

Dan...yes, perlu kau minat lakukan kerja menggunakan alat2...sebab sem satu lagi dah memerlukan kau untuk welding, potong itu ini...untuk buat project.

Sem 2 pula, kau perlu design dan bina project sendiri...

Ha, walaupun project2 tu dibuat dalam kumpulan...tapi, kau perlu la tau juga...dan buat.

Tak malu ke asyik nak harap ahli kumpulan yang lain yang buat ? Habis kau ?

Takkan sampai bila2 nak macam tu ? Nak kerja nanti camna ?

Buat apa kau masuk bidang ni ?

Haa...emo lak aku...

Nasihat aku tu la, kumpul skills kau...serious.

Takkan la kau rela dipandang lemah, tak kisahla kau laki ke perempuan...

Dan...kau mungkin tak sedar, kau akan banyak susahkan dan lukakan banyak pihak kalau kau tak sumbang apa2...

Kumpul skills kau. Sentiasa pilih untuk majukan diri.

Hmmm, aku rasa aku cuma boleh tulis sebanyak ni je untuk kali ni.

Harap dapat sikit membantu.

Aku minta maaf tak dapat tulis tentang course aku sebanyak yang aku nak, sebabnya, aku pun belum belajar banyak2nya lagi.

Apapun, kalau aku dah belajar lebih2 lagi and dah masuk subjek2 kapal...aku, pastinya akan menulis lagi...

Apa yang aku tahu sekarang, aku nak jadi sebahagian dari orang2 yang terlibat secara langsung dalam pembinaan kapal, proses2 tu semua...

Itu impian aku.

Awak, kita nak bina kapal!

:-)

***UPDATE JUNE 2019 : Aku tulis sambungan cerita fasal kos aku, hehe...click here kalau rajin nak baca lagi :-)

PPBU YBR

***VERY VERY IMPORTANT UPDATE : SEPTEMBER 2020

Memandangkan ramai lagi masih mengunjungi blog aku kerana ingin mengetahui hal2 berkaitan PPBU yang aku tulis beberapa tahun lepas, dan ada yang dm aku di instagram bertanya bentuk2 soalan (yang mungkin) sudah berubah setelah beberapa tahun berlalu, aku berbesar hati ingin menambah baik apa yang aku tulis beberapa tahun lepas ini setelah mendapat satu dm yang amat sangat aku percaya boleh membantu bakal penerima-penerima baru PPBU 2020 dan keatas. Ingin aku tegaskan sekali lagi, apa2 yang aku tulis dibawah, hanyalah pengalaman aku, ianya boleh berubah dan berbeza sejajar dengan zaman dan era (ewah nak merepek pulak). Aku hanya kongsi apa yang aku tau, dan aku tidak mendapat apa2 keuntungan pun, kalau membantu mana2 pihak, baguslah :)

Okay lah, jadi ni aku nak update,dm di bawah yang aku screenshot ini merupakan dm yang aku terima daripada seorang saudari yang baik hati yang ingin menolong orang lain yang ingin mengetahui latest  format online test 2020 PPBU :

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Itu sahajalah dm yang aku dapat daripada saudari tersebut. Doakan beliau lulus dan dapat PPBU 2020 :)

Aku dah pun habis menerima PPBU ini selama 8 semester dan aku sudah menamatkan pengajian aku di UTM pada August 2020. Terima kasih YBR :) 

Apapun, sebarang perubahan berkaitan hal PPBU sejajar dengan masa adalah diluar kawalan aku. 

Don't forget to stream new song by ZAYN, "Better" on Spotify, YouTube, AppleMusic etc.

**END OF VERY VERY IMPORTANT UPDATE : SEPTEMBER 2020. 

TULISAN DIBAWAH MERUPAKAN APA YANG AKU TULIS BEBERAPA TAHUN LEPAS :

Hai semua, aku tengah tak ada mood nak study...dah tiga hari kot!
Aku asyik buang masa...asal buka buku, aku tertidur dengan segera...
Adui, minum kopi 5 cawan sehari pun, dah tak beri kesan apa2 dekat aku...

Hmm, dah macam tu, aku memang tak tahu nak buat apa sangat...

Jadi, alang2 tu, aku nak bercerita sikit sal PPBU YBR ni...
Oh, kenapa tiba2 saja ?
Jawapannya sebab minggu lepas aku baru je balik dari kem induksi untuk penerima2 bertuah PPBU YBR tu...hoho.
Kem tu, dekat Primaland Resort...
Okay2, so, izinkan aku bercerita lebih lagi...

Aku tulis ni, sebab dulu waktu aku mohon benda ni, banyak maklumat yang aku nak tahu, and nak tanya tak dijawab pun oleh orang2 yang aku tanya...
Hmm,, sibuk barangkali...maka itulah sebabnya, aku tak nak biarkan orang selepas aku alami benda sama...mulia tak aku. Kahkahkah.
Okay, gurau2...
= ="

Jadi, ceritanya, aku apply PPBU selepas aku terima tawaran sambung belajar kat UTM Skudai...
Yepp...kiranya, dalam bulan 8 aku applied.
Tapi, PPBU ni, sebenarnya, dibuka sejak April lagi, sampai September pada setiap tahun kalau tak silap aku.
Hmm, bagaimanapun, nak mohon PPBU, memang kena ada surat tawaran sambung belajar dulu tak kisahlah dari mana2 tempat, IPTA or IPTS.
Bidang apa, or course apa, boleh pegi tengok kat website bank rakyat...sorry, aku tak larat nak google dah...banyak nak tulis lagi ni...heheh.

Aku ? Aku ambik apa ? Aku sekarang tengah study semester 2, Mechanical Engineering kos Naval Architecture and Offshore Engineering.

Napa aku mohon PPBU ?

Yeah, sebab sebenarnya ialah...aku pun tak tau, aku mohon je...apa yang boleh mohon, and tak menyusahkan sangat aku try je...

Kahkah.

Haa...lepas beberapa bulan mohon PPBU, barulah calon saringan pertama diumumkan...dan, pemohon perlu menduduki online test pulakk...

Online test tu, sebenarnya, tak susah langsung pun...walaupun, ada yang aku tak berapa boleh jawab, aku tetap nak cakap tak susah...kahkahkah.
Online test tu, ye tanya soalan2 SPM, senang je. Serious. Maths SPM, English SPM and Bahasa Melayu SPM jugak tak silap.

Cehceh...cakap besar sebab dah lepas, memang la...
= ="

Tak, tak, aku cakap benda jujur je ni, tak suka, sila main jauh2...

Cer teka napa hanya soalan level sekolah yang ditanya ?
Haa, time aku pegi kem tu, pengurus besar Bank Rakyat sendiri yang cakap, diorang tanya soalan2 tu sebab diorang nak pastikan soalan tu dijawab oleh pelajar sendiri bukannya parents...
Sebabnya, kalau parents, mesti dah lupa soalan2 tu...lainla cikgu sekolah kan...heheh...
Cikgu sekolah pulak, mestilah yang ajar semua subjek gitu, baru tahu...

Hehe.

Ha, sebab tu la, jadi, tak yah risau sangat dekat part online test ni, serious.
Walaupun aku ada baca kat mana ntah yang cakap, kalau buat ni, buat la ramai2 dengan kawan2...
Hmm, tapi, nasib aku kan, aku tak ada kawan, jadi aku buat ajela sendirian.
= ="
Tapi, see...aku lepas je pun...

Oh, and aku jugak ada terbaca yang online test akan tanya basic soalan sal bank rakyat.
Hmm, yang tu, aku tak pun ditanya, hmmm....aku tak tahu ke depan2 akan ditanya atau tak, tapi untuk Online test PPBU 2016, memang tak ditanya, aku jawab kan...jadi, aku tahu laa... :-)
Online test tu sejam aje, tapi, jangan risau, tak sampai sejam dah boleh settle.
Lepas dah jawab, akan dapat email camni

Yang aku conteng tu, nama aku. Hahaha

Apapun, pastikan boleh jawab soalan2 nya yer :-)
Untuk Maths, aku ambil Mechanical Engineering, memang tak logik la kalau still tak kuasai maths level sekolah kan...jadi, ya...tentulah tak ada masalah sangat bagi aku untuk menjawab soalan2 tersebut ;) 

Aku tak tahu kalau kos lain belajar maths ke tak...tetapi, kalau tak belajar, aku nasihatkan, sila rujuk balik nota Maths time SPM dulu.
Serious. That's the best thing yang kau perlu buat kalau kau tak yakin dan risau.

Untuk soalan English...hmm, kalau aku kata tak boleh jawab, seolah-olah aku minta penampar...sebab SPM dulu, aku dapat A+.
Walaupun English aku sekarang dah agak berkarat, tapi, at least, benda2 basic grammar level SPM tu still senang bagi aku...kalau tak, tak ada la aku dapat grade camtu, kan ?


Untuk Bahasa Melayu pun, aku dapat A+ time SPM dulu, pastu aku suka cikgu bm aku dulu, jadi, mestilah aku ingat jugak...walaupun ada yang aku lupa, at least, aku tried hard untuk ingat balik time jawab online test tu...

Ha, kalau risau jugak...walaupun aku dah kata tak payah risau, bolehla tengok2 balik soalan objektif time SPM dulu :-)

Jangan risau sangat okay, I support you :-)
Good luck and all the best, sayang!
;-)

***UPDATE : 2019
Sebab ramai sangat yang baca benda yang aku tulis ni, aku nak tambah beberapa info yg aku dapat daripada individu2 yg comment kt sini, ni penting jugak la, kalau hampa just baca apa aku tulis mmg xcukup sangat, cer scroll baca semua komen, berguna tau... so untuk benda yang aku baru tambah, aku akan highlight warna kuning, yass untuk menandakan highlighted comment gitu. 

#1 Credits : Anonymous on 16 July 2018 at 19:27

Ujian Aptitud Set 1,2,3,4 2015
1 jam = 45 soalan

Bahagian A - Teks, Isi tempat kosong, Perkataan sinonim, Pilih ayat sama maksud
15 Soalan 20 Minit

Bahagian B - Teks, Isi tempat kosong, Grammar
15 Soalan 20 Minit

Bahagian C - Matematik, Pengiraan, Volume Formula, Tahun Lompat, Harga Diskaun, Mod, Median, Mean, Prime Number
15 Soalan 20 Minit

Save Setiap Section 1,2,3,4,5
Completed, 0%, 20%, 40%, 60%, 80% & 100%

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Good luck to all candidates. Doa, usaha, ikhtiar dan tawakal kepada Allah SWT.

Lepas berbulan2 jugak selesai Online Test, (aku tak ingat sangat berapa lama aku tunggu)
barulah keputusan siapa yang dapat PPBU diumumkan...dalam bulan Februari or March camtu...
Kira, begini ceritanya, aku mohon bulan 8, online test bulan 11 or 12 tak silap aku...sorry, aku tak berapa ingat dan, aku dapat tahu dapat ke tak dalam bulan 2 atau 3.

Yehh...

Dan, pada bulan April, iaitu minggu lepas...bagi mencukupkan syarat menerima PPBU, aku perlu pergi kem induksi tu...
Hehehe...dan...duit dapat bila, aku tak tahu, sebab aku tak dapat lagi,
Nanti dah dapat, aku update ye...tapi, jangan minta lak duit kat aku...kahkahkah. Duit tu, aku diamanahkan untuk guna buat study :-)

***update***
duit aku masuk 19th July, jadi, try la kira berapa lama aku tunggu, duit ybr ni kena sabar sikit...heheh. Memang lama jugak nak tunggu tu kan.
***update***
duit untuk sem 3 aku masuk 6th October

Aku bersyukur sangat2 terpilih untuk dapat PPBU ni...sebab daripada 18.5k pemohonan, lebih kurang 550 orang je terpilih, dan akulah salah satunya...

:-)

Waktu aku pergi kem tu, ramailah orang yang aku jumpa...dari pelbagai universiti and tak ada sorang pun yang sama bidang dengan aku...mungkin ada, tapi tak jumpa dengan aku kan...mana aku tau...
Hmm, dan aku kan pelajar tahun satu, tapi2...hari tu pi kem, aku banyak jumpa pelajar tahun 2, tahun 3 and Pelajar Masters and PhD je...

Kalau nak tanya aku, camna kau boleh terpilih ni, bank rakyat tengok apa kat kau, ha ? Pointer tinggi sangat ke ?
Sabar, sabar...
Jawapannya, aku tak tahu pun kenapa...ada orang cakap bank rakyat tengok pendapatan mak ayah jugak...yang gaji tinggi2 susah nak dapat. Hmm, salah.
Sebab pendapatan bulanan ayah aku dalam range 9k-15k... (lol jangan kata aku kaya lak, tu duit ayah aku...aku mana ada duit... = =")

Ha, dan pointer aku ? Hmm, pointer matrik aku dalam 3.7+++ jugak...pastu sem satu degree aku dapat lebih kurang gitula dalam 3.7+++
Aku tau, aku tak 4flat...tapi, tula nak cakap, pointer rendah pun bank rakyat tolong jugak aku, pilih jugak aku...

Kalau 3.5 ke bawah ada peluang tak ?
Ada. Tentulah ada. Sebab syarat asal, nak mohon mesti 3.0.
Dan, benar sekali, sebab ada kawan aku yang results dia 3.4...dan dia dapat je.
Ada yang 3.8, tapi tak dapat jugak.
Semuanya atas rezki...selagi boleh berharap dan berdoa, maka berharaplah.

#2 Credits : YB on 28 September 2019 at 09:43

Sy kongsi cerita sikit pasal YBR ni ye. Maklumat yg saya dpt dr seseorang yg boleh dipercayai mengatakan antara kriteria calon yg berjaya utk disenarai pendek utk ujian online YBR adalah berdasarkan 2 faktor.

1) Result yg baik minimum CGPA 3.0 (Matrix/Asasi dll)
2) Tiada senarai Blacklist CCRIS & CTOS (bergantung kes) dr pemohon & penjaga (ibubapa).

Seperti yg kita semua maklum YBR ni pinjaman boleh ubah di mana kalau result tak cukup baik kita kena membayar balik pinjaman ini berdasarkan kadar yg tertentu. Jadi secara logiknya kalau dah PENJAGA (ibubapa) sendiri pun ada termasuk dlm senarai blacklist (contoh: hutang tertunggak yg besar dgn mana2 bank) bagaimana bank nak mendapatkan balik pinjaman tersebut JIKA pelajar tersebut kena membayar balik pinjaman oleh kerana prestasi CGPA yg tidak memberangsangkan?. Soalnya sekarang bukan isu Ibubapa bergaji besar atau tidak tetapi sejauh mana mereka mampu membayar balik pinjaman tersebut jika berlaku sesuatu yg tidak diingini?. Walau apa pun kita boleh cuba saje utk memohon mana tau ada rezeki kalau2 dapat. Tq

Haa, lagi satu hal penting, waktu mohon nanti kena deposit RM100 ke akaun bank rakyat, dan dulu, aku tertanya2 jugak, boleh ke tak nak keluarkan duit tu sepanjang tempoh memohon.
Hmm....
aku tak tau jawapan yang pasti, tapi, aku keluarkan duit tu....
dalam RM70 camtu, baki akaun aku, tinggal RM30 je sepanjang aku mohon tu...ni benar, dan you see...aku berjaya je dapat.
Tapi, aku tak pasti laa...kalau kau keluarkan, dan kau tak dapat, tolongla jangan salahkan aku...
Huhu.

Eleh, tak logik la baki akaun RM30 je, sepanjang belajar takkan ayah kau tak kasi duit, kot ?
Hmm...
Tentulah kasi, tapi, aku guna CIMB, sebab UTM Skudai, memang guna CIMB sebagai bank utama pun...bank rakyat aku tak pakai sangat. Dan memang aku tak ada duit nak masukkan dalam akaun tu sebab aku tak pernah buat part time or bekerja...

Hmm...

Kalau dah ambil ptptn, boleh mohon ke ?

Tentulah boleh. Pastu2, yang baiknya, bank rakyat akan potong duit PPBU kita untuk bayar ptptn...kiranya tak perlu la fikir nak bayar ptptn dah lepas dapat PPBU.

PPBU ni apa ? Biasiswa ? Pinjaman ?
Jawapannya...hmm...pinjaman boleh ubah.
Kalau berjaya maintain results 3.75 ke atas sampai habis belajar, maka satu sen pun tak perlu bayar. Baikkan...
Nak maintain macam mana tu...jangan tanya aku...sebab aku pun tak tahu nak maintain results camana...aku baru tahun satu ye anak2...umur baru 20, pengalaman maintain results memang tak ada...tanyalah diri anda sendiri.
Kuikuikui.

Kalau tak berjaya?
Hmm, dia ada tulis tak silap aku dekat borang mohon tu...tak berjaya, tentulah kena bayar sikit...
Memandangkan aku rajin, mai nak habaq ni...
Kalau maintain results 3.75 - 4.0, tak perlu bayar,
Kalau 3.5 - 3.74, bayar 10% je
Kalau 3.0 - 3.49, bayar 30%
Kalau 2.75 - 2.99, bayar 50%
Kalau 2.50 - 2.74, bayar 70%
2.49 ke bawah, bayar la semuanya...

Napa bank rakyat buat syarat camtu ? Kedekutnya!
Tak, tak...mana ada, waktu di kem tu, aku diberitahu...syarat bayar tu dibuat sebab bank rakyat tak nak penerima2 PPBU ni, malas belajar lepas dah ditolong...
sebab tu la, syarat tu dibuat...
Ye la, kalau aku pun, dah orang tolong tu, belajar la betul2 kan...dia tak minta lebih pun, suruh dapatkan pointer tinggi je.
Doakan aku. :-)

Ha, berapa banyak duit dapat ? Minta sikit...
Uishh...
Tak boleh2...haha...

Ha, dapat 9.5k setahun, iaitu satu sem 4.75k la kan...ni untuk degree di mana2 universiti selain UiTM, pelajar UiTM dapat rendah sikit sebab yuran diorang murah kalau tak silap aku. Diorang dapat 6.5k setahun rasanya...

Untuk Masters and PhD, sorry, aku dah tak ingat...sebab aku tak bagi perhatian ritu...Sorry sangat.

Ha, sekarang, aku nak cakap sal kem induksi pulak.
Kem ni untuk apa ?
Haa, ntahlah...haa...jkjkjkjk.

Pendapat aku (setelah hadir kem), kem ni untuk kenal2 bank rakyat...pupuk rasa sayang dan bersyukur pada bank rakyat kerana memilih aku di antara ramai pemohon yang lain...
hehehe...

Aktiviti di kem tu, tak padat pun...
Kem tu sendiri, mewah...
Buat di Primaland Resort...(kaih pi google)
Haa...kira sepanjang kem, tempat tidur kau tiptop la...kalah asrama dekat U kau tu...ada air-cond siap...dengan katil ada orang kemas lagi...
wah...wah...kem anak raja ni...
LOL.

Jangan risau, makanan pun tiptop jugak, 6 kali sehari!
Perghh!
Huhu, tak perlu fikir nak jimat ke apa, percuma je, tinggal masukkan dalam perut kau je, serious.

Alright, itu saja dari aku...nak tanya lebih, komen je, nanti aku try jawab and bantu apa yang perlu.

#3 Credits : Anonymous on 27 September 2018 at 00:29

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My Sketchbook Tour! (January 2017)

Hey guys!
heheh...sejak aku tulis entry fasal to-do list tu, maka aku pun bersemangat nak laksanakan segala benda yang aku tulis kat to-do list tu.

Alhamdulillah, setakat ni, aku berjaya...kecuali yang no.3 belum aku laksanakan, sebab aku tak baca apa2 buku lagipun ni
= ="
Hmm...apapun, aku dah pre-order buku kedua Connor Franta, and buku tu, akan keluar this April, can't wait for that!

hehe...anyway, here I am, I'm gonna share what I sketched this month starting from 19th January...but then, because I'm a little lazy, so there're only a few drawings...
After this, I'll work harder to sketch at least, one drawing a day...

Yeah, and that's because of my ambitions too...
I'm taking an engineering course, and soon, after completing my study, inshaallah, I'll be a graduated engineer...and maybe one day, a professional engineer...
But then, my ambitions aren't just engineer, I also wanna be an artist and a lot more... :-)

So, sketching is really something that I need to do a lot in order to achieve my dreams.
Hmm, 2017, I'm gonna live my life to the fullest and be greater than before...

Alright then,
Tadaa....

Please excuse my drawings if they are bad for your eyes...

I didn't sketch anything at all since I started my university's life last September, and it's kinda weird and awkward to sketch again...

My skills were rusting so fast... = ="

and of course, I need time to improve...

This is my favorite drawing for this month! I sketched Harry Edward Styles, I hope you notice that,

by the way, as you can see I upgraded my signature...

I wrote the number '17' beside my signature...heheh.

I did that, and will do that after this because, this year, it's 2017, that's why I wrote '17' so that after this, I'll recognize my drawings and the year I sketched them

I'm having problems recognizing which years I sketched my old drawings...and I hate that because I couldn't see my progress...

= ="

So, doing that will help me enough after this.

Besides, I also sketched other One Direction members...tadaa....

I'm satisfied with my drawings of Louis and Harry, but then, not for the others,

I'll sketch them again, soon!

I'm trying to sketch Liam Payne here...

This is the weird Niall I ever sketched...will sketch him again tonight!

However, I didn't finish sketching Zayn's face, and will not finish it.

I'll sketch a new one soon...

Hmm, by the way, I sketch his face during 2010...and here it's...

I like the hair part. I always love drawing the hair part...

*I'm too lazy to scan my drawings, if I scan them someday, they'll be at my drawings page

All of the photos above were taken using my phone... = ="

Sorry if they're blur...

Heheh...not only that, here're my other drawings in this month!

I like this drawing so so much ! ;-)

not gonna finish this, guess who ?

I like this drawing this way, unfinished. Guess who ?

Pikachu and Ash, will color them soon!

Heiji Hattori

Heiji again!

That's all. I hope I can draw better.

I hope I can draw a lot more after this, I'm gonna make time for that.

Yeah, my second semester will start soon, and I'll bring my sketchbook with me to draw a lot more after this!

By the way, from last year, these two are my favorite...

Heheh...and I'll start making colored drawings again next month.

until then, see you next month!

Bye!

p/s : I hope you like my drawings, if you don't...maybe you should go and draw yourself. Jkjk.