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| In My Blood - Shawn Mendes credits : Google Image |
Hello. I just want to talk about the song that Shawn Mendes just released today.
When Shawn released it, I was in class. So, as I've been waiting for Shawn's new song for a long long time, I was excited and I went to the toilet and give it a go and...
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I just stopped myself from crying because I needed to focus during class.
After I went back to my room and listened to it again...
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Tears burn my cheeks. I can't believe how beautiful that song is...
It is sad and beautiful,
It speaks my mind atm very very well
Once again, for the millionth time, I fall in love with a song.
I fall in love with this song because of how much I can really relate it to myself,
and how perfect the melody goes...
the musics...
and Shawn's beautiful voice...
The more I listen to it, the more I fall for it...
Help me, it's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up, but I just can't
It isn't in my blood
In my case, it's not just 'sometimes', most of the time I want to stop doing what I'm doing, but I can't.
I already told you how I have reached the point of no return...
Just have to keep going...
Laying on the bathroom floor,
feeling nothing
I'm overwhelmed and insecure, give me something
I could take to ease my mind slowly
Just have a drink and you'll feel better
Just take her home and you'll feel better
Keep telling me that it gets better
Does it ever?
Also, most of the time, it's like I'm too numb to feel a thing...feeling nothing.
I just can't see how my life can get better ?
Will it ever ?
Will it ?
This question has been lingering on my mind for too long, too long... and when I try to talk to someone to find the answer...
No, I can't find the answer
No medicine is strong enough
Someone help me
I'm crawling in my skin
My 'happy little pills' don't help much, but I still have to consume them from time to time,
to stop my head from exploding,
to stop my body from bleeding,
to stop my heart from breaking,
to stop myself from dying...
Just few days ago, I almost did it again...
It left few scars, still red...
I gave myself another go, I took the pills again and again...
Drinking redbull just because I want to stay alert, focus...
but yeah...
The voice keeps whispering...
Looking through my phone again feeling anxious
Afraid to be alone again, I hate this
I'm trying to find a way to chill, can't breathe, oh
Is there somebody who could...
Help me, it's like the walls are caving in
This part, really really describe why I do what I do...
I always on my phone,
'Fangirling' that's what you guys call it...
But that's the only way to ease my mind and chill and breath,
If only you know...
I always want someone to be there to help me...
But no matter how much I try to shout...
No matter how many entries I write trying to talk about it...
Trying to reach out,
There's just nobody to want to give me that hands...
Have to pick myself up alone again and again
Deep down...it hurts, it's hard
I need somebody now
I need somebody now
Someone to help me out
I need somebody now
When I can't save myself anymore next time,
I wish somebody can help me with it
To stand on my two feet again...
This time, I'm just lucky enough...
The voice doesn't whisper loud enough.
Anyway, big thanks to Shawn Mendes for sharing such a meaningful song to the whole world, I wish that it will open more eyes...
To look beyond this song...
There're always voices that shout out loud but you don't want to listen to
If only you know...
Oh, but then, still, you can interpret this song in many ways,
but I believe that all of us, at one point in our life, can relate to this well-written and meaningful song...
Oh Shawn, now I really really can't wait for your third album!
Thank you, thank you, thank you so so much for this song!
p/s : Other songs that have 'something' like this song are : Real Friends (Camila), Jet Black Heart (5SOS), Invisible (5SOS), The Girl Who Cried Wolf (5SOS), Broken Home (5SOS), Happy Little Pill (Troye), Ease (Troye) etc (too much to list - but those are my recommendations of beautiful sad songs that you can always relate to...)
