Back at writing,
Cause looking back, I know I have nobody at all.
And I know I deserve nobody.
Thanks for being with me for the past three months
My life has been really bad lately, and I can't love you anymore because how that's possible when I don't even know how to love myself
Thanks for letting your family visited me when I needed someone
Thanks for letting me hugged your mom for a while,
Thanks for everything that you did to me
I want to love you again in the future
Right now, I just can't force myself to trust or love anyone because it has been really hard
Thanks for being my study partner even when we're miles apart, even when we live in different time zones, taking completely different courses
Hope we can still be that kinda partner even when we're not together anymore
Don't want to put any label, but deep down, I know I'm grateful for you, you're the only one that I have to cherish in my life right now
But I'm afraid it won't be fair, afraid it won't be enough...
I had it rough...
Been stabbed three times in a year, ahhh how can I trust again after this?
I know I deserve to be stabbed, I know I deserve everything that's bad in life because I'm a bad person...
I know you're different, but see...this is what I'm afraid of, would be unfair to you
Thanks for loving me, being a really great boyfriend,
Even if it's not now, when I'm fully ready, when that time comes, if you have no one and want me back, I hope that moment, we can be together
This won't change anything, the way I love you won't change
I just hope to love myself the same way I love you 😔
The unwanted role, that's me.
It's weird to think about how can anyone love and want the unwanted role?
